I'm not sure if it's chasing around a 14 month old, being 4 1/2 months pregnant, cleaning up after 3 dogs or what, but I'm exhausted!! I've always tried to maintain a tidy home but I'm just about ready to throw in the towel. I don't know how to do this! I had a few little bursts of energy today and was able to accomplish a few things but not nearly everything I would've liked.
I want someone like Alice from the Brady Bunch to come live with us. She could clean the house, do the laundry, cook, feed the dogs...well just about everything that keeps me from spending time with my family! And every now and then when I wanted to show my perfect wife/mama side, I'd bake a pie or something. Just the thought of someone to take care of all the behind the scenes stuff makes me a little sad. It seems like such a simple request but I know it's not realistic whatsoever.
And besides, I like cooking and cleaning for my family. It's just keeping up with it all is so very exhausting and never ending. Thank goodness I have a husband that does his best to take care of us. Honestly, I don't know how anyone without a husband like mine does it!
I think my frustration is how very little time we have to spend with our family. I hate to think time I could be spending with them is spent vacuuming or cleaning the stupid bathroom (I loathe this chore most of all!). I knew having a family would put things into perspective and I think I've really let a lot of things slide, but it would still be nice to at least get to a good starting point - a perfectly spotless home with everything in its place. Then maybe I could at least maintain some sense of order!
And what's it going to be like when the baby comes? Oh Alice...we could really use you!
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
School!
Today was Tucker's first day of school...well kinda like school. He's going to a childcare program 2 days a week from 9:30 to 2:30 so it's the closest thing to school that he's experienced so far. We wanted him to start interacting with other kids and also give Alec's parents a little break.
Of course, just like every other milestone or first in Tucker's little 14 month life, I just about cried my eyes out! I'm not sure when I started - maybe sometime last week? But I didn't stop until I got to work this morning after dropping Tucker off. Poor kid! His mama's just a big 'ol baby!
I tried to give Tucker a pep talk on the way there but every time I tried to open my mouth, this huge sob just came rushing up my throat and I'd start crying again. I'm sure I had Tucker pretty freaked out by the time we stopped by the office to pick up Alec. There was no way I could drop Tucker off by myself the first day!
I honestly cried from the time we pulled into the parking lot until we got back to work. A few of the other mothers gave me sympathetic smiles and the director just kept reassuring me that Tucker would be fine.
We walked Tucker back to his room and he went into shy-mode when his teachers tried to talk to him. Finally we gave him a hug and a kiss and I handed him off to his teacher. And he cried. And I cried harder. This was not going well at all. We just had to leave - it was best for everyone.
When we stopped at the front desk, Tucker's crying died down and he was fine! However, I continued to cry!
We picked Tucker up later in the afternoon and we were told that he took a good nap in the morning, ate most of his lunch and was "such a sweet boy" which we already knew! We saw some of the same mothers and the director again and all were relieved that I was in much better spirits this time!
Hopefully dropping him off will get easier...until it's time to start real school!
Of course, just like every other milestone or first in Tucker's little 14 month life, I just about cried my eyes out! I'm not sure when I started - maybe sometime last week? But I didn't stop until I got to work this morning after dropping Tucker off. Poor kid! His mama's just a big 'ol baby!
I tried to give Tucker a pep talk on the way there but every time I tried to open my mouth, this huge sob just came rushing up my throat and I'd start crying again. I'm sure I had Tucker pretty freaked out by the time we stopped by the office to pick up Alec. There was no way I could drop Tucker off by myself the first day!
I honestly cried from the time we pulled into the parking lot until we got back to work. A few of the other mothers gave me sympathetic smiles and the director just kept reassuring me that Tucker would be fine.
We walked Tucker back to his room and he went into shy-mode when his teachers tried to talk to him. Finally we gave him a hug and a kiss and I handed him off to his teacher. And he cried. And I cried harder. This was not going well at all. We just had to leave - it was best for everyone.
When we stopped at the front desk, Tucker's crying died down and he was fine! However, I continued to cry!
We picked Tucker up later in the afternoon and we were told that he took a good nap in the morning, ate most of his lunch and was "such a sweet boy" which we already knew! We saw some of the same mothers and the director again and all were relieved that I was in much better spirits this time!
Hopefully dropping him off will get easier...until it's time to start real school!
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Our Latest Happenings
Not a whole lot of thrilling moments lately, but we do have some fun things coming up.
This Saturday is Founders Day in my hometown of Wynona. Founders Day consists of a parade that's about 15 minutes long (mostly firetrucks, people on 4-wheelers and some horses) and then games and visiting in front of the town hall on main street.
One thing we like to do is sit in the shade with my grandparents and try to figure out who everyone is. It's funny how you forget someone's face when you haven't seen them in so long and they've put on weight and gotten gray headed. I wonder if I look different to everyone? I know I don't look like the same girl who grew up in this area, but I wonder if I'm recognizable?
Later in the evening, there will be the alumni banquet. Since our school is so small, we don't have class reunions. We have the alumni banquet every other year so all of the classes can attend. This is really the best way for all of us to get together since many of our friends are from classes other than our own.
Next weekend, we are going to the wedding of one of my very best college friends. I'm so happy she's found love! This will be one of the rare Tucker-free occasions so hopefully I can hold it together and only cry tears of joy for my dear friend and not separation anxiety tears!
Then the following weekend is the BIXBY GREEN CORN FESTIVAL!!! So excited this year! Last year, we drug poor 2-month-old Tucker out in the horrendous heat and only stayed long enough for the parade and 1 ear of corn. Hopefully the weather will be nice and we can stay a bit longer to really enjoy the food and festivities!
In July we'll be traveling with Alec's parents and brothers to Durango Colorado for a little family vacation. This will be Tucker's first time on a plane - can you believe it?!? First time flying at 14 months! I was 18 years old the first time I flew on a plane...and I've not gotten used to it since! I'm not a flier. I'm just not. I'm still a little fuzzy on what all this trip entails - some camping, some site seeing, some chasing a 14-month old around a campground, some stumbling across a campsite at 3am for my middle-of-the-night-pregnancy-pee...we'll just have to wait and see!
And just in time for all of these activities...Tucker has become quite the handful! Oh my lands - he's fast! His running is more like a really fast walk, but he's fast! And he hasn't seemed to learn his lesson from his monkeying ways. He climbs all over everything. And apparently, the more involved the fall is, the more fun it is! My heart stops every time he tumbles! I have a feeling one of those backpack leash things will make it into our home very very soon!
This Saturday is Founders Day in my hometown of Wynona. Founders Day consists of a parade that's about 15 minutes long (mostly firetrucks, people on 4-wheelers and some horses) and then games and visiting in front of the town hall on main street.
One thing we like to do is sit in the shade with my grandparents and try to figure out who everyone is. It's funny how you forget someone's face when you haven't seen them in so long and they've put on weight and gotten gray headed. I wonder if I look different to everyone? I know I don't look like the same girl who grew up in this area, but I wonder if I'm recognizable?
Later in the evening, there will be the alumni banquet. Since our school is so small, we don't have class reunions. We have the alumni banquet every other year so all of the classes can attend. This is really the best way for all of us to get together since many of our friends are from classes other than our own.
Next weekend, we are going to the wedding of one of my very best college friends. I'm so happy she's found love! This will be one of the rare Tucker-free occasions so hopefully I can hold it together and only cry tears of joy for my dear friend and not separation anxiety tears!
Then the following weekend is the BIXBY GREEN CORN FESTIVAL!!! So excited this year! Last year, we drug poor 2-month-old Tucker out in the horrendous heat and only stayed long enough for the parade and 1 ear of corn. Hopefully the weather will be nice and we can stay a bit longer to really enjoy the food and festivities!
In July we'll be traveling with Alec's parents and brothers to Durango Colorado for a little family vacation. This will be Tucker's first time on a plane - can you believe it?!? First time flying at 14 months! I was 18 years old the first time I flew on a plane...and I've not gotten used to it since! I'm not a flier. I'm just not. I'm still a little fuzzy on what all this trip entails - some camping, some site seeing, some chasing a 14-month old around a campground, some stumbling across a campsite at 3am for my middle-of-the-night-pregnancy-pee...we'll just have to wait and see!
And just in time for all of these activities...Tucker has become quite the handful! Oh my lands - he's fast! His running is more like a really fast walk, but he's fast! And he hasn't seemed to learn his lesson from his monkeying ways. He climbs all over everything. And apparently, the more involved the fall is, the more fun it is! My heart stops every time he tumbles! I have a feeling one of those backpack leash things will make it into our home very very soon!
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