I've been very very careful about making sure not to ruin any of my...well..."mother's milk". I make sure to keep any that I've pumped in my bottle cooler bag and I'm very careful when handling open bottles. This stuff is a precious commodity - liquid gold if you will!
Well today I had my first casualty. I finished pumping and was quickly detaching all the parts so I could stash them in my sleek pump bag. Wouldn't you know it, I knocked over a bottle - a FULL bottle - all over my desk, keyboard, mouse and me!
Needless to say, I cried over spilled milk! Honestly! I was so furious and upset that I ruined a whole bottle. Those who have not produced mother's milk or who have not been around a mother's milk producer, may not understand the magnitude of the time, pain and utter frustration involved with this "simple" process.
Every time I don't produce 4 full bottles, I feel like a failure and that I'm neglecting Tucker. It's not unusual for me to shed a few tears when I'm only a 1/2 ounce away from a full bottle. And of course just when I've mastered meeting my quota for the day, Tucker decides he would like just a little bit more at each feeding.
But I keep reading about the benefits of breast milk so I trudge on... at least for another month or 6 months or a year.
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